Its been a while..

I dont even remember the last time I updated this.
Ive been so stressed about moving and finding a new job.

Jamie and I applied for an apartment yesterday and the landlord denied us because "the dog is too big" its a real bummer. It was near the lake, near the metra, it would have been perfect. but no, now we're back at square one.

seriously, how could you deny this fella

tattoos>paying bills

I decided to get my elbow done today. I figured it would tie my arm together a lot better and that way i could not get tattooed again for a long time (due to me moving) and it wont look like im missing something.

Spring break is over

Im so sad I have to go back to school, at least I only have a few weeks left.
For spring break karl came down and we went to disney. It was seriously so much fun. 80 degrees and sunny everyday, what could be better?
though, i must say it was really expensive. I put my rental car on my credit card and our park tickets/hotel were paid for in advance and I still managed to spend around 500$

That was the first time karl had swam in the ocean since he was 5.

I also managed to gain 4 pounds on vaction....just to find out our treadmill is STILL broken and might be for a couple more weeks. ugh.

Saturday

As usual I have to work all day today/tonight, but at least I have all next weekend off and ill be in florida.

Unfortunely Karl didnt get any hours at work this week...and even though that means he wont have much money for our trip.....im really excited.
He was supposed to get here next friday (the 11th) but seeing as he doesnt have to work I convinced him to come monday for my birthday! Im so excited. Two whole weeks with karl.

I ended up renting a car for three of the days we're in florida so we can drive to the beach and stuff. Underage surcharges suck.

It hasnt been my week

Anyone who reads this probably thinks im really whiney, but I promise im not usually like this.

As expected I failed my math test yesterday. Then I got yelled at by a cop, who was standing in the middle of the road as he screamed at me because I didnt see a guy who had just stepped into the cross walk....3 lanes away.

Well, today I started packing for florida because I leave in two weeks and needed to know what I did or did not have to bring. Well, turns out the weight I gained looks a lot bigger in summer clothes. I dont fit in my shorts anymore, well, they fit, but my stomach looks weird.
Ive been dieting but nothing has changed.
I just want to lay here and cry. I dont even want to go on vacation looking like this.
Then my mom has the nerve to tell me every day about how big she feels weighing in at 127.

You know what I hate?

Lots of stuff, but mostly math.
As a requirement for graduation this year I had to take either a science or a math class and seeing as I suck even worse at science than I do math it was my only option. My teacher is an old man who just talks and talks about nothing and no one actually learns anything. So, needless to say, I have only attended two out of at least six classes because I deemed it a waste of my time. However, I also havent been doing the homework because I couldnt afford the book. They wanted us to buy a brand new edition for 70$ and seeing as I definitely dont have that much money I waited and ordered the older edition for 10$ which was cool, but it just came in the mail and now im way behind and the test is tomorrow.

The last few days have been pretty rough, after feeling like my heart has been stepped on for the last few days, I called out of work tuesday so I could sleep and got called into work today because one of the other supervisors was sick. Seems like my life. Sitting in class kills me because my mind wanders and causes me to dwell.
However, after talking to a friend tonight I feel much better. I dont talk to him very often, but I do hold his opinions very highly and I wanted to know what he thought I should do. Oddly enough he told me he had been through the same thing and kept his relationship, it grew and now its better. The trust comes back and you cant hold things over someone. Something that happened almost 8 months ago, should have been told to me 8 months ago, but seeing as it wasnt all I can do is move on, forward.

Speaking of moving forward, in slightly more than three months ill be living here...

Its times like these

where I wish I had a puppy to cuddle with.
For the first time in a while, im really sad. I wont go into details, but being lied to is one of the worst feelings in the entire universe and now I realize why Sammy said those awful hurtful things to me last year when he found out I lied to him. Karma's a bitch I guess and this time it came back to get me.
I feel kind of lost, my eyes are swollen from crying.

I cant help but wonder, how long does it take for someone to get your trust back, if at all?